clout

The paradox of clout: one can only disavow clout upon achieving it, which means by extension makes their disavowal meaningless because they already have it. "Omg being at the top is so hard and stressful" ok cool I don't care because I'm not at the top and mediocrity tastes like blood in the back of your mouth and I would rather my head explode from the air pressure at the top of a mountain than blowing it out myself because I will never know what the view is like up there. But, if I am ever to get good enough at something where I can say "yes having clout is the worst" someone will tell me this. Thus the cycle continues and no one is happy. Maybe its better to never play the game of ambition at all.