ive thought about getting a body pillow and cutting myself. i have too much self control to let myself do such things however. i fear what my life would be if i didnt. there are people that love me, and in my heart of hearts i know that! sometimes it just feels nice and safe to forget that and sink into that abyss inside me.

but i won't. i care about those who care about me too much to let that happen

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