its so funny, she actively tells you to your face the level of aquitance you are. ive never been told i am a side friend to my face like has, and the conditions of our friendship were both being side friends
there is nothing to say except that i am lonely. next year will be hard but i will have a purpose, but for now i am d r i f t i n g through space. sometimes i feel frustrated that im sad, or rather ambivalent to the state of the universe. its not an original emotion, but i think its only crass narcissism that makes me hate that my feelings are universal. and then i hate that i felt that. but its not hate. i feel that if my existence were to make a noise it would be an apathetic groan followed by a somber chuckle
yet makes clear that she wishes we talked more.
ReplyDeletehow funny, how cruel.