a place to put words

learning music makes me feel inadequate which means i have to learn enough so i dont feel inadequate. fuck you. 

i think ive been thinking about if i desire to be interpreted and deciphered vs my desire to live a completely opaque life for a very long time, and i think my desire to be interpreted won, despite how cringe (for lack of a better word) hates it

there are three types of people in this world. horny teenagers looking for validation, suspicious people on the internet willing to give it to them, and people who have no idea that the first two exist.

i accidentally made a typo there, maybe there is something poetic in that. oh well, lost to time now. thanks for everything. 

am i disgusting for wanting to be groomed yes or yes

"I ATE A BIG BAG OF FACTORY REJECT SEEDS UNTIL A HEALTHY FLOWER UNFURLED IN MY CHEST ... I MISTOOK THE SENSATION FOR LOVE AND DIED"  - shovel2-deactivated20151204